Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I was just an option


She was perfect. Beautiful flawless skin clear of any blemishes. Long thick black hair. A body most men wish they could even touch. Come to find out most of them probably had. She wasnt perfect and I was fooled.

When we first met I just knew I had found the woman of my dreams.She was gorgeous, she could cook, she liked sports, and she didnt have any kids. It never quite hit me that she was too good to be true until I found out otherwise.I made her my sun and my world revolved around her.

Since we first got together she had male friends and why shouldnt she? She was a grown independent woman and I trusted her. Even though we didnt hold hands in the street and when i said 'I love you' her reply was 'I know u do'. So what she had missed a couple of dates or didnt answer her phone some nights. I mean she had to have a life too. It was okay she missed my birthday twice and I was the only one who bought Valentine's Day gifts. I loved her.




One night I woke up to her phone ringing. The ID simply read 'T'. I fought myself back and forth in my head for all of 2 seconds before walking into the bathroom to answer it. The husky male voice on the other end didnt wait for her to talk before saying 'Hey babe, u done with work yet?'. I hung up.

I watched the woman I thought I knew sleeping. He hadnt said much but he said enough. The phone vibrated again this time with a text message reading ' Why did u hang up? love u, call me back'. Love? How could he be in love with the woman who loved me. I mean she never said it but I knew she did. She had to as much as I loved her. Thats when I realized I had been in love by myself.

Things went downhill after that. I never spoke of the incident but it consumed me and made me open my eyes to just how much she didnt care, She still never said I love u. I still never met any of her friends. I still was playing the fool. Eventually i called her up one day to tell her it was over and all she said was 'okay'. I never heard from her again.

I was devastated. Hurt because the woman I loved and was faithful to never saw me in the same way. Mad she let me believe I was the only one recieving her affection. Feeling stupid for making her my all and i was just some guy she was seeing. But I had learned a hard lesson. Never give more then u recieve.

10 comments:

Le'nae Brooks said...

This is so true , Never make someone your all and they only make you a priority

Intelligent Young Lady said...

I love this post! I've been through this before. not just with ex-boyfriends, but with friends also. So true!

Denita said...

There were so many red flags there. But communication is the key. There was clearly no communication going on within this relationship. Communicate to make sure you're on the same page.

Ange said...

I think the saying is: never make someone a priority when you're just an option :-)

ShootaWoota said...

this is hella good.! i kinda went thru the same thing but i met friends nd wht not but they knew the whole time. a couple of my friends tried to warn me, but i was too blinded by "love." this gets two thumbs up from me.

iluvmesumu said...

it hurts to feel like you care more about somebody than they do about you and it's hard to just let go of somebody that you care deeply about. You just have to reach that point when you smell the coffee and you've had enough. It won't be easy

Shawn said...

Love it!!! The warning signs aren't there for nothing. They should be used as eye openers... DON'T make excuses for the things that your partner does wrong. They should be able to tell you openly how they feel about you!

Anonymous said...

The best comment in this post is "Thats when I realized I had been in love by myself." So many people fail to realize this! But just as you had to go through the who experience, we all do!

Isamar Avery said...

WoW! Beautifully written, i felt every emotion that man felt just by reading.

Kads said...

i can totally relate to this with ex-boyfriends...i totally agree never give more than u receive