Monday, November 1, 2010

Your Gonna Love Me


He was fine. 6'3, big hands, big feet, handsome face, and a gorgeous body. He was a god and I was in full worship mode.He worked at the law firm across the street from the men's shoe store I worked in. He came in one day, asked for a size 13, and the rest is history.

He called me faithfully every night and I drove over to his place. We would fuck till dawn and I would go home and wait for the next night of passionate love making. I tried calling during the day but I never got an answer. I was okay with that until I saw her. He was jumping in a cab with some blond headed chick who was not a co worker.

I called him over 40 times that night. After the last call I jumped in my car and parked across the street from his building. I could see her in the window, she was undressed. I got out my car and took the elevator up to the 15th floor. I knocked as loud as I could with a stiletto on. He did not look to happy to open the door and see my face. He told me he had company and he would probably call me tomorrow, then closed the door. I took out my sharpie and wrote 'whore' as many times as I could fit it on his hardwood door.

I sat in my car till dawn and watched as he kissed her forehead in the lobby. The same kiss I got every morning before hopping in my car. I followed her cab. I waited all of 15 minutes before walking around to the back of her brownstone with the brick out the trunk of my car. I threw it straight through the second floor window and hauled ass back to my driver's seat. She would leave my man alone after finding my little note telling her so.

The next night I still didn't get my call. I was going insane. I would've called him but the number was changed and he must've forgotten to give it to me. I mean that happens. Hes a busy man. She was just a mistake and he was waiting to apologize the right way. I picked out my sexiest lingerie and my long pea coat and drove to his building. I couldn't wait to see my man.

I knocked on his door. He opened it and looked shocked to see me. I threw my arms around his neck expecting to be kissed and swept away. Instead he yelled at me. He called me crazy and told me he was done with me. He told me to never come back to his apt and don't try to contact him. I cried and got the door slammed in my face. He was mad at me for just showing up. I understood and I would make it up to him.

The next day I went to the restaurant he ordered from all the time and got his favorite meal. I walked across the street to his job and hand delivered it. Imagine my surprise when I got escorted out by security without even seeing my man. I was furious. How dare they take me out when I was trying to fix things. Didn't they know who I was? Did they not see the pictures of me I put all over his office? We were in love.

His job made him call the cops on me. I know because they came to my work counter with a order of protection. He would never do that to me. He was crazy about me. His job also must not allow pictures because they were all mailed back to me. The paper said I couldn't call or contact him for 3 years. 3 years was too long to be away from my man. I couldn't have that. We were gonna be together. he was just waiting for me to make the move.

I waited in front of his building for a hour before grabbing my duffel bag out of the trunk and pressing the button for the elevator. This is the way its suppose to be. I walked down the hall and knocked softly at his door. We belonged together. He opened the door and I kicked it in. We could've had a future together. I told him I loved him and the only way they would leave us alone is in another life. We made the perfect couple. I pulled the trigger 3 times before turning the barrel on myself. He loved me.

24 comments:

tenci :) said...

she was out of her mind. but he was an asshole!

Allofme said...

He didn't deserve That... he deserved something but IR shouldn't have cost him hus life.. she was definitely insane!

Anonymous said...

He totally used her and did her wrong but ya have to write him off as a jerk and move on. She lost her mind!

Angelyn said...

He didn't deserve to be killed but she was out of her mind, He should have talked to her about it then maybe she could have moved on.

le_belle_etoile said...

definitely way out of her mind! the guy was a jerk...yes, but it doesn't have to cost his life for it

*NeshaBee* said...

She was crzy.. but thts wat men get wen they cheat on the wrng women.. or play w the wrng person heart

Natalie said...

A man who doesn't allow you to be part of his life besides during the night time should not take over your life. Yes, she was unfortunately out of touch with reality. My feelings would be too hurt for me to try one more time.

Karla said...

wtf...psycho insane. sometimes you must be the bigger person and MOVE ON! QUIT YOUR JOB AND START OVER SOMEWHERE ELSE!

misstp2 said...

He should have kept it real with her. That would have proved to be a feat within itself though seeing that she couldn't even keep it real with herself...horrible really...

Anonymous said...

That was hilarious! The sad part about it is people do go insane when someone they love is gone. Some people do extreme things like the lady in this story while others just sit and suffer in silence. Maybe we should take the hint from this story and take time to get to know potential partners before anything bad happens.

Anonymous said...

wow...psycho case i must say.thats really a sad situation..she was crazy about this dude who obviously did not care about her...oh well,he got served big time...guys!!! pls pls pls! if you do not have anything to offer,don't chase them n make them believe you cant live without them! better to let them know your intentions in the very beginning!if they want,they'll stay,and if they dont,atleast you told them the truth from the get-go!

Nicole Green said...

omg...this bitch is crazy!!

blank girl said...

She was a nut...but he was also wrong

Gracie said...

...actually they were both wrong, he was being a typical guy; using her and then 'moving' on and she unfortunately just didn't know how to take a hint. this is a classic example of what love is NOT supposed to be like. :)

Candy said...

oh my gosh, that girl was crazy! but sadly, there are women out there who really do things like this which is super scary. I feel like the guy, granted what he did was wrong, should have at least been real with her in the beginning. he should have told her how he felt and talked about it. I think it is so rude when guys do all this lovey, dovey things with a girl in the beginning stages of a relationship and then they just dismiss her and "mentally" move on. He obviously thought he could have his cake and it too. Sadly, he will be eating that slice of cake by himself in heaven...

Anonymous said...

holy crap.

Jessica said...

WOW! What an accurate account of many woman who are in disbelief that the person they fell in love with has done them wrong. It was denial, frustration, anger, saddness, vulunerable and simply confused. Many and I mean many women believe if I can just show him he will change. If I can just prove I am everything things will change. What is said is that the very person they are trying to prove this to is not looking for any of that stuff from them and has no interest in recieving it from them. It is such a sad but true event!

Keisha Cake said...

She is crazy. Hello, if you're just a booty call, you're going to stay that way! They say men are dumb, but women can have their moments too. It's sad because this actually happens in reality.

dezihaaay said...

That bitch is crazy. Point blank.

Anonymous said...

I know how she felt! I to went insane when I saw my ex of five years with another man! I wanted to do all sorts of bad things that would have landed me in prison! But I held back the hurt&betrayal! Bcuz it turn out to be her friend! I did it for the daughter we share! Just because of one's sin doesn't give you the right to sin against! God help me through it! But yeah I really did go out of my mind those first two weeks! But nobody should loose their life over it!

Anonymous said...

she was crazy...Love does the craziest things.

April said...

This was A Crazy But Interesting Story

Anonymous said...

Omg... this story was crazy he should of jus talked to her...smh

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